according to wikipedia, "plan b" is a popular term used to mean a reserved, secondary plan, in case a first plan (a hypothetical "plan a") fails.
remember my plan back in february to move to the gulch? well, so far, all signs point to "no". though i've had a ton of showings (with no negative feedback besides "not quite right") nobody has put an offer on my current place. and here i am, almost 4 months later, feeling like a failure. didn't i hear God say move forward? didn't all the timing make sense? doesn't God know my dreams & desires? these and many more questions run around my mind and heart as i fight for contentment. (because, after all, isn't that what i declared this year to be all about?)so i'm learning what it looks like to keep hope when we resort to "plan b" - and (if we believe that He is sovereign and in control) that it's really God's "plan a".
i finished reading ruthless trust (remember when i started it? - i've seriously loved every page.) and i'm realizing that i took a risk...and in all practical senses, yes, it failed...i am not moving. but who defines failure? who's to say that God's purpose wasn't this process of waiting and trusting all along?
do i still cling to the certainty that God is with me and loves me in my struggle to be faithful and believe? yes. and i continue to ask God to open my eyes to what i've already been given. like habakkuk in the old testament, i, too, shout at God "how long?" and "why?" -- but God is answering me in the same way He answered the prophet -- to encourage me to look around and see what IS happening. that God is speaking and doing things all around me...exactly where i am. because God is always speaking and moving (not to be confused w/ me moving...), even when He seems silent.
and He is always providing.
my prayer these last few months has been that God would provide. {and that has been His promise all along.} i knew that if it wasn't a buyer, then it was a roommate.
so, He has provided me with my sweet friend, adria. she has been a constant in my nash-life since the beginning, and i'm looking forward to what this next season holds for us. adria is in a transitional period, so it's definitely not long-term, but we are both learning to rest in contentment and take each day's provision as a gift.
to trust God's plan for today.
so here's to plan b.
2 comments:
definitely not failure...and definitely God using this time to teach you...to prepare you.
i'm studying David right now and its amazing to me that God anointed David as king when he was young and then made him go through crazy crazy stuff for 15 years! then he crowned him king (which David had to go through some battles even to get that!).
God used those 15 years to prepare David...to make sure to give him the experience and skills he needed to be king....but most importantly to put him in hard situations and trials for David to learn to always turn to God (think about the Psalms!)...and he learned.
I think I am in that preparation period (15 years or longer...I'll wait!). And maybe you are. Always be confident that you heard God correctly...although David never hesitated to ask the question a few times and get more specific each time! Just be patient and always be looking for how God is using this time to prepare you for that "thing" He promised.
Love you!! Pam
Good word. Good perspective. I struggle here too. It's funny you posted this today because I was struck by a prayer in the Valley of Vision this morning speaking to this very issue:
"Thou hast done for me all things well, hast remembered, distinguished, indulged me. All my desires have not been gratified, but thy love denied them to me when fulfillment of my wishes would have proved my ruin or injury."
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